A few weeks ago, my dad said something very interesting to me. I don't remember the quote verbatim, so I'm paraphrasing a bit here... "you know, I really feel like the world is becoming a more selfish and viscous place." In context, we were talking about the demands we've been finding on our time, and recent dealings with people in general.
At first, I agreed with my father's sentiments as they to a large degree sum up my feelings lately. Living in New York City, I'm constantly faced with a deluge of people that either rude, ignorant or both. Yet, I found myself contemplating what he said for the better part of the last week. There's a lot implied by a simple sentence like that, and I think there's a lot that lurks under the surface that deserves a lot of attention. It's more of an emotional reaction than a factual statement, and I surprised myself at how much my perceptions changed as I dug deeper into it.
So I looked into this thought, and asked myself "is the world today that much more selfish and/or viscous today?". I think in large part, the statement depends on context...too often, people (myself included) tend to be short-sighted on this very notion of context. Yeah, I think it's easy to say things are a lot more selfish and vicious feeling today if the sample size is narrow enough. For me, the world was a lot simpler and easier when I was a kid. Now that I'm in my late 20's and playing the role of "adult", this statement is easy to justify. Even trying to step into my dad's shoes, it could be very easy to justify that the world was a much saner and comfortable place. He's surrounded by different people, different situations (he's only got 1 kid still in the house instead of 4), a lot more responsibilities, risks, experiences, not to mention now that he's hit 50 there's an increased possibility of (knocking on the proverbial wood) health issues, increased insurance premiums, retirement, (as good a place as any to throw the words massive recession out there). So yeah, trying to put myself in his position, it's EASY to make that statement and honest-to-goodness believe it. However, I felt like I was taking the wrong approach, I don't think the comment was meant to reflect on our own personal lives, but rather as a broad brush on today's society.
Has "modern society" given in to feeling justified as selfish and self-serving as everyone else; "Damn the masses, I'm going to get mine come hell or high water". My initial reaction is to say that soooo many people in this day and age have come to this conclusion, it's easy to see it everywhere. But, is this feeling more prevalent now than it was in the past?
I think what underlies all of this is technology - the major driving force behind the majority of societal change. My personal experience with the effects of technology has been the "coming of age" of the Internet. I was born in 1982, so I basically grew up as the Internet did. By the time I was in high school, its true potential was being realized. I got my first cell phone at 17 and being heavily involved in technology since my youth I've been intimately intertwined with the amazing amount of technology advancement in the past 2 decades. I think it's relevant to mention all of this, because with these advancements in communication and information technology, it's fundamentally altered how we communicate and interact. Our world today has become one where we're literally bombarded with information on a regular basis, and one where it becomes very easy to feel like an insignificant cog that's got to fight to get above water & get what's ours.
We're plugged in pretty much every minute of every day, always anxious that we're going to miss out on something. We're forced to digest the myriad of information thrown at us so fast, that we've all become extremely adept to filtering it in quick little parcels, easy to throw it in the trash or hit the delete key. "It's not worth our time". I think this has made us more attuned to quick bits of information rather than longer, thoughtful transmissions of ideas. This anxiety doesn't allow us the freedom to sit with a particular issue/item/experience long enough to seek its true breadth. We're constantly looking forward to the next e-mail/issue/entertainment/item/etc... long story short -- we make ourselves this busy for fear of falling out of "the know".
Bringing it back to the comment at hand, I think everyone's got a lot more built-in excuses for being selfish. We spend less time meaningfully interacting with people because we're "busy". The pace of today's society is such that it takes a larger and larger percentage of our time, energy & resources to maintain our status, that often we resort to quick facebook updates or text messages to maintain contact. We feel comforted that we have hundreds of facebook friends, or e-mail "contacts" -- but how many of those people have you just sat down and had a real experience with in the past 6 months? a year?
What I'm trying to get at is that all this time being "busy" makes us seem selfish and self-absorbed. It's not completely true though, we're simply absorbed in all of our technology. It's a surrogate, not the real experience. I find myself more and more cherishing time spend around a board game with friends, a beer with a buddy, walks in the park, etc...than I spend checking my RSS feeds, filtering through friend's status updated and FarmVille accomplishments on Facebook (which I can't stand by the way), and I haven't touched on work e-mail yet...
So I don't think it's so much that we've become more selfish and viscous towards each other - I just think that the pace of life has blurred things so they seem that way. For as many burdens as technology may place on our time, it also opens up so many more opportunities. Access to knowledge and information is always becoming easier and easier, the spread of ideas are wider and quicker. For as much as this technology has added to our responsibilities and invaded into our personal time, it's also done much more to improve humanity on a global scale - the exact opposite of making the world more selfish and vicious.
I feel that the world has a way of self-balancing - writing, printing presses, radio and television have all had fundamental influences on humanity...and the internet is just the next stage in that evolution. Humans are still left with the fundamental choice on how we react within the situations we find ourselves in: situations that are increasingly infused with technology. I feel that the majority of people don't intend to be selfish or vicious, but we need to put in additional effort to get through the noise those technologies add to our lives.
- Chris
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Yorkville
It's my last day in Yorkville, and I've been feeling some mixed emotions. I'm pretty much packed up, tomorrow's moving day. I just got engaged on Saturday, and Alexandra and I will be sharing OUR first apartment together in a few days - so things are definitely very exciting around here. But, I can't help but reflect on the past year with some uncertainty.
My move to Yorkville last summer was made for a simple reason. I was determined to live my life on the terms and in a method that were my own. It was the first place I could call MINE for as long as I can remember. No roommates or co-habitants like college and the years that followed. Yorkville symbolized a fresh start from a failed marriage, a way to break free of all those memories and create something new with Alexandra.
This apartment isn't anything all too special, a small ground-floor studio facing the street - no place for an air conditioner, a bit noisy at times, ok neighbors, 4" of counter space...but it became a home. My plan all along was only to stay here for a year, get myself sorted out, and as a bonus I was close to my girl's place. A year later I'm moving to a larger apartment, better in every way...yet I still find myself feeling a bit bummed I'm leaving this place.
I've done this moving thing a lot. I did the math the other day, and this will be my 20th permanent move in my 28 years. I'm so used to fresh starts, and be every definition this is another one...but why does this one feel different?
Truth is, I don't know. This apartment will remain a fond memory, but not one I'm going to cling to. I know better than to get too attached to where I've been, and all I can control is where I find myself in the present. Maybe it's in our wiring to miss where we've called home when we're setting off to someplace new.
You know, this kind of feels like when I left for college.
My move to Yorkville last summer was made for a simple reason. I was determined to live my life on the terms and in a method that were my own. It was the first place I could call MINE for as long as I can remember. No roommates or co-habitants like college and the years that followed. Yorkville symbolized a fresh start from a failed marriage, a way to break free of all those memories and create something new with Alexandra.
This apartment isn't anything all too special, a small ground-floor studio facing the street - no place for an air conditioner, a bit noisy at times, ok neighbors, 4" of counter space...but it became a home. My plan all along was only to stay here for a year, get myself sorted out, and as a bonus I was close to my girl's place. A year later I'm moving to a larger apartment, better in every way...yet I still find myself feeling a bit bummed I'm leaving this place.
I've done this moving thing a lot. I did the math the other day, and this will be my 20th permanent move in my 28 years. I'm so used to fresh starts, and be every definition this is another one...but why does this one feel different?
Truth is, I don't know. This apartment will remain a fond memory, but not one I'm going to cling to. I know better than to get too attached to where I've been, and all I can control is where I find myself in the present. Maybe it's in our wiring to miss where we've called home when we're setting off to someplace new.
You know, this kind of feels like when I left for college.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
The 1995 "Chris" Set
This is simply so good I had to share. So I'm working on a super-secret project, which required me to go through some old stuff. Whilst going through said stuff, I came across a bunch of hard plastic trading card cases. I pulled them out and I found a bunch of old hockey "cards" that I drew back in 1995, when I was 13 years old!
This was quite a set, a "who's who" of hockey in the 1994-95 NHL:
Doug Gilmour - Brendan Shanahan - Martin Brodeur - Theoren Fleury - Mike Modano - Jason Arnott - Chris Pronger
Wayne Gretzky - Pavel Bure - Alexandre Daigle - Mario Lemieux - Teemu Selanne - Guy Carbonneau - Eric Lindros - Brett Hull
I love that I actually tried to put some of my own style into the backgrounds: the simple two-tone color blocks behind each logo, the simple borders for names and position (and of course my "95 Chris" branding).
As much as I miss being a kid, finding stuff like this just hardens my resolve that when I have kids - I'm going to just give them a box of markers and let them go to town...
This was quite a set, a "who's who" of hockey in the 1994-95 NHL:
Doug Gilmour - Brendan Shanahan - Martin Brodeur - Theoren Fleury - Mike Modano - Jason Arnott - Chris Pronger
Wayne Gretzky - Pavel Bure - Alexandre Daigle - Mario Lemieux - Teemu Selanne - Guy Carbonneau - Eric Lindros - Brett Hull
I love that I actually tried to put some of my own style into the backgrounds: the simple two-tone color blocks behind each logo, the simple borders for names and position (and of course my "95 Chris" branding).
As much as I miss being a kid, finding stuff like this just hardens my resolve that when I have kids - I'm going to just give them a box of markers and let them go to town...
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Such a Schmuck
This afternoon I headed out to Tiger Schulmann's, ready for another night of training. There's no questioning the routine: it's Thursday afternoon and I was geared up to go. I stuffed my now-dry grappling shirts and pants, stuffed them in my bag full of kickboxing gear and slung the 30 pounds over my shoulder. I checked my pockets: wallet, phone, keys...check check and check. I grabbed my iPod, threw in my headphones - the same headphones that got water damaged this past Sunday and only the left earbud works. I put both earbuds in anyway - my little signal to the world that I don't want to be bothered with you. I've got that look in my eye...that look of determination and single-minded focus on getting to TSK and pushing myself. I threw on any random tune and headed out.
As I walked down York Ave, I blew right past one of those obnoxious kids from Children's International trying to get me to stop and save the children - I was glad I had both earbuds in: a clear sign I wanted nothing to do with him or his sales pitch...he leaves me alone. I manage to catch the M79 headed to the subway - the bus is half empty so I hop on to save a few minutes. I am absorbed in a game of Blokus, and barely remember to get off the bus @ Lexington Ave. I hop off the bus and walk back to the corner to walk the 2 blocks to the 6 train downtown. I see an old woman leaning onto the garbage can on the corner, cane draped over one shoulder. She's wearing a one-piece pink dress that goes down to her ankles - I pay little attention as I walk around her - I hear muffled speak through my non-functional earbud. I assume she's asking for change - I'm sad, but I'm resolute. It's a personal policy that I don't endorse begging, or selling candy on the subway, or subway car acrobatics/singing/preaching, or people who try and stop you on the sidewalks asking you to support a cause/politician/starving children half a world away. I remain in my own world - I distract myself with the tunes in my left ear and ignore the woman behind me. I hear her say something to someone behind me..."I don't want to bother you, sir...". I continue living in the assumption that she's begging - I can't wait for the light to change and walk away from it. Then she taps the bag slung over my shoulder, with reluctance I pull the earbuds out of my ears and turn to her - as kindly as I can muster - completely prepared to tell her I won't give her any money...
"Can you please help me across the street sir?"
I take a second, and I say to myself: "You're such a schmuck, Chris."
I throw on a smile, "Of Course, Ma'am." I shift my bag, hold out my right arm and she grabs around my elbow, and I escort her around the cars and trucks that cheated the red light and force us to navigate through the crosswalk carefully. She extols about how crazy New York drivers are, and she's thankful for my help. "You must not have heard me with all that music.", she says. I make up a lame excuse that I had turned it up because their was a bunch of loud kids on the quiet bus I was just on. The crossing completed without incident, she thanked me in such a sincere way that my heart was calmed. The ignorance I initially showed her was forgotten - she was simply grateful for my assisstance. I wished her a pleasant day - and she return my wishes in kind. We parted ways as I weaved through my fellow pedestrians the 2 blocks to the 77th Street station.
I swiped my Metrocard, and waited for the subway - still contemplating what just occurred. "Am I really so negatively conditioned to this city?", I asked myself. I presume everyone's out to try and sell me on something, beg me for something, to bother me. I realize that this city's makes me act coldly sometimes. I realize that it's not entirely me being a schmuck when I ignored the woman - I honestly did not hear her clearly...but I instantly recalled my buddhist & taoist learnings regarding how something's true nature can be obscured by approaching it with pretenses and assumptions. I just assumed that the noise in my ear was begging, based on preconceived notions of someone learning on a garbage can - and those assumptions can cause misunderstandings which lead to guilt and regret.
I realize that there's no harm done - ultimately I did the right thing and performed the right action with the right mindset. I realize that this was the world's way of teaching me a lesson in awareness - true awareness cannot come by maintaining some insular mindset.
It cannot come by tuning out the world with an iPod.
I realize that I'm not a schmuck - I'm just a human that needs to tune out less often.
As I walked down York Ave, I blew right past one of those obnoxious kids from Children's International trying to get me to stop and save the children - I was glad I had both earbuds in: a clear sign I wanted nothing to do with him or his sales pitch...he leaves me alone. I manage to catch the M79 headed to the subway - the bus is half empty so I hop on to save a few minutes. I am absorbed in a game of Blokus, and barely remember to get off the bus @ Lexington Ave. I hop off the bus and walk back to the corner to walk the 2 blocks to the 6 train downtown. I see an old woman leaning onto the garbage can on the corner, cane draped over one shoulder. She's wearing a one-piece pink dress that goes down to her ankles - I pay little attention as I walk around her - I hear muffled speak through my non-functional earbud. I assume she's asking for change - I'm sad, but I'm resolute. It's a personal policy that I don't endorse begging, or selling candy on the subway, or subway car acrobatics/singing/preaching, or people who try and stop you on the sidewalks asking you to support a cause/politician/starving children half a world away. I remain in my own world - I distract myself with the tunes in my left ear and ignore the woman behind me. I hear her say something to someone behind me..."I don't want to bother you, sir...". I continue living in the assumption that she's begging - I can't wait for the light to change and walk away from it. Then she taps the bag slung over my shoulder, with reluctance I pull the earbuds out of my ears and turn to her - as kindly as I can muster - completely prepared to tell her I won't give her any money...
"Can you please help me across the street sir?"
I take a second, and I say to myself: "You're such a schmuck, Chris."
I throw on a smile, "Of Course, Ma'am." I shift my bag, hold out my right arm and she grabs around my elbow, and I escort her around the cars and trucks that cheated the red light and force us to navigate through the crosswalk carefully. She extols about how crazy New York drivers are, and she's thankful for my help. "You must not have heard me with all that music.", she says. I make up a lame excuse that I had turned it up because their was a bunch of loud kids on the quiet bus I was just on. The crossing completed without incident, she thanked me in such a sincere way that my heart was calmed. The ignorance I initially showed her was forgotten - she was simply grateful for my assisstance. I wished her a pleasant day - and she return my wishes in kind. We parted ways as I weaved through my fellow pedestrians the 2 blocks to the 77th Street station.
I swiped my Metrocard, and waited for the subway - still contemplating what just occurred. "Am I really so negatively conditioned to this city?", I asked myself. I presume everyone's out to try and sell me on something, beg me for something, to bother me. I realize that this city's makes me act coldly sometimes. I realize that it's not entirely me being a schmuck when I ignored the woman - I honestly did not hear her clearly...but I instantly recalled my buddhist & taoist learnings regarding how something's true nature can be obscured by approaching it with pretenses and assumptions. I just assumed that the noise in my ear was begging, based on preconceived notions of someone learning on a garbage can - and those assumptions can cause misunderstandings which lead to guilt and regret.
I realize that there's no harm done - ultimately I did the right thing and performed the right action with the right mindset. I realize that this was the world's way of teaching me a lesson in awareness - true awareness cannot come by maintaining some insular mindset.
It cannot come by tuning out the world with an iPod.
I realize that I'm not a schmuck - I'm just a human that needs to tune out less often.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Coney Island
Alexandra and I spent Memorial Day with a fun trip out to Coney Island. She's never been, so I was totally excited to introduce her to the controlled chaos.
We had a fun subway ride (6 to Atlantic Terminal - transfer to the Q to CI), then witnessed how much its changed these past 2 years. Luna Park looks fantastic, but the rides aren't done yet and its mostly geared toward the little tykes. A lot of the old arcades and booths are closed down now, probably run out of town by landlords banking on buyouts for new developments.
We immediately headed over to the cyclone (always do this before food), where we got our brains rattled and we escaped with our lives intact. Next we walked the boardwalk and beach, navigating through wave after wave of fat, out of shape people wearing far too little bathing suit. If you don't believe americans are generally getting fatter and lazier, take a trip to CI this summer.
Next, we got some old school photo booth photos, and played some skee ball. I got to teach Alex some neat tricks to improve her game - and we won enough tickets to buy some skee ball Power Rings.
I later found and old Ms. Pac Man machine in decent condition (set to fast mode just how I like it). After showing off my skills, we went and got some Nathan's. It was way too crowded, but it's funny how much it didn't matter. I was where I wanted to be, with the person I wanted to be with, there was no reason to let the fact that everyone in line was shoulder-to-shoulder - I was happy. We each got a hot dog, shared a corn dog, some fries and an orangeade. It was pretty damn tasty:
We walked it off on the boardwalk, noticing how crazy the beach was:
While it was a great day, I think it's best to avoid Coney on holidays from now on...for as long as it's still there.
We had a fun subway ride (6 to Atlantic Terminal - transfer to the Q to CI), then witnessed how much its changed these past 2 years. Luna Park looks fantastic, but the rides aren't done yet and its mostly geared toward the little tykes. A lot of the old arcades and booths are closed down now, probably run out of town by landlords banking on buyouts for new developments.
We immediately headed over to the cyclone (always do this before food), where we got our brains rattled and we escaped with our lives intact. Next we walked the boardwalk and beach, navigating through wave after wave of fat, out of shape people wearing far too little bathing suit. If you don't believe americans are generally getting fatter and lazier, take a trip to CI this summer.
Next, we got some old school photo booth photos, and played some skee ball. I got to teach Alex some neat tricks to improve her game - and we won enough tickets to buy some skee ball Power Rings.
I later found and old Ms. Pac Man machine in decent condition (set to fast mode just how I like it). After showing off my skills, we went and got some Nathan's. It was way too crowded, but it's funny how much it didn't matter. I was where I wanted to be, with the person I wanted to be with, there was no reason to let the fact that everyone in line was shoulder-to-shoulder - I was happy. We each got a hot dog, shared a corn dog, some fries and an orangeade. It was pretty damn tasty:
We walked it off on the boardwalk, noticing how crazy the beach was:
While it was a great day, I think it's best to avoid Coney on holidays from now on...for as long as it's still there.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Softball Slugger
So I had the best offensive game of my life tonight playing for my dad's firm's modified pitch softball team. - sadly in a losing effort...but it's still exciting enough to share!
1st at-bat: RBI Double to RF
2nd AB: 3 Run Home-Run to RF (My first home run ever!)
3rd AB: Triple to CF
4th AB: 2 RBI Single to RF (Hit for the cycle!)
5th AB: Single to CF
5 for 5, 6 RBI, 3 Runs Scored ...it was a pretty exciting night, and I swear I wasn't jucing.
- Chris
1st at-bat: RBI Double to RF
2nd AB: 3 Run Home-Run to RF (My first home run ever!)
3rd AB: Triple to CF
4th AB: 2 RBI Single to RF (Hit for the cycle!)
5th AB: Single to CF
5 for 5, 6 RBI, 3 Runs Scored ...it was a pretty exciting night, and I swear I wasn't jucing.
- Chris
Monday, May 3, 2010
Week In Review
It's been an interesting week. I've been challenged by others, I've challenged myself, and it's caused me to think about a lot of things. Instead of a succinct narrative, here's the week in review as footnotes:
- Wednesday I realized that there's not many people in my life these days that are challenging me. I've become so used to being challenged from so many directions, that now when it does happen I tend to get defensive and try to "resolve" the challenge ASAP. It's hard for me to totally comprehend the wisdom in "living the question" instead of obsessing over getting it solved and move past it. Of course this is easy to write after I've had a few days to think about after someone
challenged me on Wednesday...but I'm modest enough to know when they're right and to step back and look at things honestly.
- That being said, I was pretty down on myself Wednesday - so I decided to train extra-hard @ Tiger Schulmann's. I ended up smacking around a heavy bag for 30 min, followed by an hour of grappling, an hour of kickboxing, another hour of grappling, and one last hour of kickboxing. I left there no longer feeling down on myself, and quite a bit sore.
- Thursday was a better day, and I was able to think with a more level head. I went back to TSK and did another 3.5 hours of work for good measure. It's a great feeling to work through the plateau I'd been stuck at for a few months.
- Went climbing at Brooklyn Boulders on Friday with my new climbing gear, and my buddy Mike of Phattire fame. His blog has some snapshots and video links, courtesty of his iPhone. It's more than a supplement to my martial arts training, it's another way for me to challenge myself. More than that, it's a great opportunity to chill to good tunes, enjoy the awesome climbing community, and hang out with good people like Mike:
Chris: "I've been trying to blog more - it's a good way for me to share my thoughts. I've stopped caring about what people will think about what I have to say, and just say it."
Mike: "Well I don't care about what you have to say."
...good times.
- Saturday was spent with Alexandra, and we toured the Botanical Gardens, happened upon a street fair, she got her mani/pedi, and we did dinner @ di Nico's in Little Italy (I'd give it a 7/10 - good food at a fair price). I surprised her later in the night by taking her past the White Rabbit bar, and lucked out that her good friend Orion was 'tending. Orion is the lead guy in The Orion Experience, an incredible band I've gottent to see live once, and they're getting very popular lately, with songs on major TV shows, and playing some big venues. I'm not a big music guy, but T.O.E. is very very good. Afterwards, we stopped for snacks at the Sugar Cafe, 2 blocks east on Houston & Allen St. - recreating the last 2 stops of the night we
first met almost 15 months ago. It was a great day to relax and simply enjoy time with Alexandra.
- Sunday was brunch with Alex, then cleaning/work/reading time while Alex wrote a paper. At night it was another meeting of the fledgling Upper Manhattan Dancers, Gamers & Drinkers Club (acronym and by-laws still a work in progress) :) A fun evening of Dixit, Carcassone, and Kill Dr. Lucky ensued.
The most important part of this past week was being able to sit back, enjoy time spent with my friends, while still embracing the challenges of others, as well as challenging myself to grow. More and more I've able to stop being a self-critic, embrace my flaws, and just go out and try new things, meet new people, create new things, and develop more wisdom.
- chris
- Wednesday I realized that there's not many people in my life these days that are challenging me. I've become so used to being challenged from so many directions, that now when it does happen I tend to get defensive and try to "resolve" the challenge ASAP. It's hard for me to totally comprehend the wisdom in "living the question" instead of obsessing over getting it solved and move past it. Of course this is easy to write after I've had a few days to think about after someone
challenged me on Wednesday...but I'm modest enough to know when they're right and to step back and look at things honestly.
- That being said, I was pretty down on myself Wednesday - so I decided to train extra-hard @ Tiger Schulmann's. I ended up smacking around a heavy bag for 30 min, followed by an hour of grappling, an hour of kickboxing, another hour of grappling, and one last hour of kickboxing. I left there no longer feeling down on myself, and quite a bit sore.
- Thursday was a better day, and I was able to think with a more level head. I went back to TSK and did another 3.5 hours of work for good measure. It's a great feeling to work through the plateau I'd been stuck at for a few months.
- Went climbing at Brooklyn Boulders on Friday with my new climbing gear, and my buddy Mike of Phattire fame. His blog has some snapshots and video links, courtesty of his iPhone. It's more than a supplement to my martial arts training, it's another way for me to challenge myself. More than that, it's a great opportunity to chill to good tunes, enjoy the awesome climbing community, and hang out with good people like Mike:
Chris: "I've been trying to blog more - it's a good way for me to share my thoughts. I've stopped caring about what people will think about what I have to say, and just say it."
Mike: "Well I don't care about what you have to say."
...good times.
- Saturday was spent with Alexandra, and we toured the Botanical Gardens, happened upon a street fair, she got her mani/pedi, and we did dinner @ di Nico's in Little Italy (I'd give it a 7/10 - good food at a fair price). I surprised her later in the night by taking her past the White Rabbit bar, and lucked out that her good friend Orion was 'tending. Orion is the lead guy in The Orion Experience, an incredible band I've gottent to see live once, and they're getting very popular lately, with songs on major TV shows, and playing some big venues. I'm not a big music guy, but T.O.E. is very very good. Afterwards, we stopped for snacks at the Sugar Cafe, 2 blocks east on Houston & Allen St. - recreating the last 2 stops of the night we
first met almost 15 months ago. It was a great day to relax and simply enjoy time with Alexandra.
- Sunday was brunch with Alex, then cleaning/work/reading time while Alex wrote a paper. At night it was another meeting of the fledgling Upper Manhattan Dancers, Gamers & Drinkers Club (acronym and by-laws still a work in progress) :) A fun evening of Dixit, Carcassone, and Kill Dr. Lucky ensued.
The most important part of this past week was being able to sit back, enjoy time spent with my friends, while still embracing the challenges of others, as well as challenging myself to grow. More and more I've able to stop being a self-critic, embrace my flaws, and just go out and try new things, meet new people, create new things, and develop more wisdom.
- chris
Monday, April 26, 2010
A poem and blog changes
Happiness
then, a spot of green I labelled Leaf
the vibrations became a Song
I called you by a Name
with words of finite meaning
the I thought upon my Mind
trying to see Itself apart
Lamenting the true moment Lost
Wrote this while walking through the rain today, and it's fitting as I just finished reading a very interesting book by Alan Watts, "The Wisdom of Insecurity". Any short version regarding Alan Watts would do him a disservice - so you can read about him here: Wikipedia
I've been starting to feel very isolated lately, and mainly because I feel like I hold back my true nature. I am inquisitive by nature, but there's a lot of truth to the fact that reading a book is one thing, understanding and living it is something all together different. I guess I've been too concerned with perception - but in reality the end result was frustration in not feeling like I was "walking the walk". All the life-altering philosophy and perceptions I've made in my life, and for what? If I don't give of myself and my nature to others, what's the point? The end result of such a path can only be division, isolation, bitterness, and moving away from the truths I seek and hold so dear.
With that said, this blog is now much more than an avenue for sharing art updates - it's a path for me to provide a glimpse into my aspect of the universe...feel free to follow along.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
New Work Update!
It's been quite a while since I've updated on new work. While my website can't show it, I've been very busy with graphic design in the past 6 months, but its for projects which must remain under wraps.
Overall I think 2009 was a great year for me, as I've started to really develop with my technique. My goals for 2010 include more painting and fine art to supplement the many hours I spend in front of a computer. To that end, I've invested in a new computer that's really helping the art along by allowing me to work larger and faster!
The website has just been updated to include work done in the past few months, including 2 one-page comics (one very abstract).
Enjoy!
- Chris
Overall I think 2009 was a great year for me, as I've started to really develop with my technique. My goals for 2010 include more painting and fine art to supplement the many hours I spend in front of a computer. To that end, I've invested in a new computer that's really helping the art along by allowing me to work larger and faster!
The website has just been updated to include work done in the past few months, including 2 one-page comics (one very abstract).
Enjoy!
- Chris
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